brown eyes just look bigger

i want to be 15 pounds less.
i want big brown eyes.
i want to look good in just socks, underwear, and a tank top.
i want edgy alternative-colored hair that makes heads turn but still long and luxurious enough to make the whole world envious.

i want to stop looking in mirrors and reflections everywhere i go.

today i realized,
what the hell is stopping me?




i have the nicest boyfriend in the world. every once in a while i step back and think "no way he's mine."

i want the world to know, just as well as i do, that the smile on my face is completely pure and untouched.
i may seem like i'm much too concerned with the world,
but i feel like i'm giving it hope.