just so tired

to put it gently, i am very very very very very very very tired.

not just from dethklok, mastodon, converge, and high on fire last night either. totally brutal. metal shows are fun.

no i'm just very very tired. in general.
i'm tired of this entire semester, i'm tired of my roommates, i'm tired of having no money, and i'm really really tired of being fat. i know that he is so small, but being ten pounds more than your boyfriend is really depressing. i'm kind of at a breaking point about it. i'm going to have to start working out like five nights a week in order to lose any weight, and i don't have the energy or time or will for that.

i hate college. it makes you tired, it makes you broke, and it makes you fat. nothing good comes of it. i'm definitely taking a year off after next fall. i really don't care what my parents say, i think 19 is a good age to break away from your homegrown responsibilities and do something for yourself.