there's this TV show called glee, and it kind of runs my life.

if only i could have the confidence of rachel berry.

she kind of inspires me. it would be a different story if she was popular and well-liked, but she's not. she is usually miserable outside of glee but once she goes on stage she's incredible and everyone likes her. unfortunately she's a fictional character so saying she inspires me is kind of silly.

part of me wants to run full-speed at my dreams. my dream job would be to be doing musical theater. as my job. all the time. i don't even want a lead role; if i could just be on stage every day for the rest of my life and go home with an okay paycheck, i'd be thrilled. and i'm at the point in my life where i should start chasing that dream - taking acting classes, voice lessons, dance lessons, etc... it's all right here within my reach right now. but my lack of confidence is what's keeping me from all of it. i don't know if i think the theater world won't like me, or if i think the dream is simply too crazy and unattainable. i know if i worked hard enough i could do it. this is something to think about.