the time has come.

yeah it's not even christmas yet, but since i'm not really having a christmas, i'm jumping to new year's.

new year's resolutions:

1. lose 10 pounds, OR until tummy is gone. i am doing this by means of working out at least five nights a week and eating nothing but special k, water, and fruits and veggies. this is going to be extra difficult whilst my boyfriend is trying to GAIN weight and is eating five meals a day. grr. but seriously now. this is the time to get this taken care of. i have a feeling i'm going to be moving somewhere exciting next year, and my weight is the last thing i want to be worrying about. being comfortable in my skin will ease the process of taking some uncomfortable leaps in life.

2. be happier, and go where life takes me. i feel like i'm stuck in this limbo in my life right now, where nothing is really quite right. i'm not entirely happy here. and if i have the chance to go somewhere new, do something new, try something new.. i'm gonna do it. i'm really serious about this. my mother's double standard about me going to college and letting my brother drop out is pretty unacceptable in my mind.

3. hang out with my roommates more. yeah, i have absolutely no way of relating to them whatsoever, but i can try. along with the 'be happier' part above, this should fall into place as well.

4. don't let my boyfriend rule my life so much. i'm such a relationship-driven person that i don't mind a bit that i spend all of my time with him. i know that we're absolutely perfect for each other and that we're going to be together for a long time. but in the back of my mind, i know it's not entirely healthy. i've been kind of deprived of the alone time that i was so accustomed to back at home. (but that's just college, i guess.) but i need to be doing other things, going places with other people.

5. change things up. i don't think this really counts as a resolution, but, at the dawn of the new year, i'm going to change some things. one thing being my wardrobe. my closet is so small in the first place that i need to rid of the things that look awful on me, or are just really old, or hold bad memories.. or whatever. i'm going to start reading more books again, and basically just keep myself on my toes. i think that's pretty important.


i have a feeling 2010 is gonna be a good year ;)