i want to start something

two modcloth gifts came in today! my penguin mug from ryan that he was gonna give me for valentine's day but i made him give it to me cuz he's a sucker, and my secret santa gift!



that headband is magnificent in real life, and looks so good on my head! now i can search for a modcloth dress to match it :] thanks modcloth!

it's quite funny how optimistic reading cosmopolitan makes me. i simply feel like i need to take better care of myself. the past day or two i've been quite upset because

- i'm starting to feel the real pressure of deciding what to do this summer and fall.
- i could only manage to get 12 credits this semester, so if i do have to stay at dixie next year, i won't have my scholarship anymore.
- i miss my fwends in salt lake.
- i still hate living in my apartment. ryan and i were totally going to move in with creed and brittany, until i played with their new kitty and had a horrible allergic reaction.
- ryan has two jobs now which is good because A: he'll be making so much more money and B: he's cooking in the nicest restaurant in st george, which makes him happy, so i'm happy. but, it's also depressing because i'll virtually never see him except before bed and for ten minutes in the morning and because it reminds me how much fucking trouble i'm having obtaining a job myself, whilst he can just walk in and ask for one and get it.

but i'm feeling optimistic!

- the time away from ryan will help our relationship, in a way. i'm not sure i need more time alone, but i need more time to be productive, i think.
- i deep conditioned my dead, fried, black hair and it's back to its original soft silkiness :) which is actually a HUGE relief because i thought it would be dead forever from dying it black. and i'm actually really happy with it right now. the length is good.
- acting class has already totally improved my life. my professor is so legit, and my classmates aren't all total freaks. it's so fun. part of me almost wants to go back to dixie next year just so i can take musical theater from my professor. i don't really want to do theater at u of u or anything because they're way too good for me up there.
- taking 12 credits is kind of lazy, as i said, but also so amazing only having classes three days a week!
- SAN FRANCISCO and WICKED over spring break!!


gym time!